Just watching the reel of life...

There are times when you see deja-vu for yourself , you think God I think it has happened before but actually it isn't because right now I am seeing the same itenerary of moments but the charecters are different....

I wanted to write whatever is there in my mind with fictious charecters but it is better I take original names because there are only three readers of this blog me Akki and princess and that won't create much of a fuss like Wiki leaks.

Same story : Saloni like Pradeep a lot , Pradeep likes Heena a lot , Heena likes pradeep ...Pradeep flirts with saloni quite a lot ..Saloni instead is fully drenched from head to toe towards liking Pradeep..Pradeep has no intentions of doing whatsoever he wants to do with Saloni..Maybe she is not that attractive ( just a thought ) ( She is kinda okay ) ..And Heena who is not that good looking is a girl for whom two guys yes!! two guys have fallen for ..Reason Not actually quite sure ...

A tiny little love story in the smallest ever office there could ever be of HCL..It seems as if people are getting bored and falling in love instead, it is like this ..somedays you actually dont have anything to do in office ( some people think I am joking coz I am ...It is up to you to decide whether you want to be bored or not )..So when you are single and you have very limited resources of making things a little bit ("colourful ") from ( "berang zindagi") ( Rightly said by a great musician in the movie "Life in a Metro") you tend to fall in love with just some limited resources around even if they are the worst looking faces with third grade issues to talk about( Love is actually very much blind because Guys make Girls blind )..Thats a fact..

I just wanted to make ( Saloni and Pradeep ) to realize they actually love each other and I know Pradeep does too but there is something that saloni did wrong here in playing games ..She wasnt mysterious enough to keep Pradeep guessing enough so out of nowhere he had to fall for a girl who is like some many times away from him but kept him guessing most importantly ..Well the matter of the fact is Saloni has totally fallen for the dude Rocket Singh ( Pradeep Shokeen ) so there is very less to do to make things okay ...

TYPES OF THE RIDICULOUS CREATION'S OF NATURE 2

So here are some of the truths that I will talk about point by point:-

Me: Girls look for guys who are like models walking down the ramp
Him: You are a fool Ari ..Girls don't even live on the same planet as we do , they don't care whether you are tall or fat or big or someone from the movie the planet of the apes(Not that extreme)..But they look for boldness, self character , and a person who can talk and talk and talk and has a lot of patience.

For me now it has just become a matter of laughter among my own self..No matter how nice I am , no matter what I try to do .. No matter how much I love some girl (I am in love with a girl and maybe she knows about it and takes a lot of advantage , they are so capable of doing that) , nothing happens for me ..I pray for countless hours .I forget to eat , drink and sleep over her and thats so foolish of me but still just because I am emotionally limited , I die again and again..

TYPES OF THE RIDICULOUS CREATION'S OF NATURE:-

I maybe wrong on this but I am not wrong on everything that I say..I might have a totally different perspective on a lot of things because I don't have the same class of DNA that you might have, you might be a go-getter , a person whom many girls might call a PLAYA..I am not having any of those qualities . And you know what I tried to change .. Really I did try to change , I cannot believe it myself but I tried ...And you know what I succeeded in knowing a lot many things which I never could have known if a very talented friend of mine did not say those few words of "karma" and "self-emotional-renunciation"...I am so glad I am now staying with a person who is one and the most guranteed girl-psyche-extractor..Listen to this there were somethings which I was never sure of nor I will ever be because my thinking process is not even close to logical or something close to what we call "The Gift Of God To Mankind" i.e the BRAIN..I am more of a very emotional personal ("A fool") , And why the hell did God create one of us("Big mistake"), Nevermind..See I never mind taking myself to the ground even if it destroys myself.

So the self - cursing attitude will never stop and I will be such a big fool mentioning all those things which I already know :)

RANDOM........

You wake up in the morning , eyes still somnolent , just as you wake up random thoughts start to appear from somewhere .Some vague memories from the past, some from the past few days , some from the last day when you had "baigan ka bharta" in the night for dinner.You still wonder is it the reality or just a dream that you woke up from . And then suddenly the vague , disoriented lines of thoughts start to take a back-drop , the crude sunshine slamming down from the window pane takes the front seat.The girl who was so close to you the last time you saw her in your dream is now just a phone call away but you cannot call her.Every time you sit next to her you feel a kind of satisfaction .A sense of completeness , which you always longed for which seems to be so close yet so far away.I just long for that one moment..

I LOVE THIS SONG..AWESOME LYRICS

And I'd give up forever to touch you


Cause I know that you feel me somehow

You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be

And I don't want to go home right now

Verse 2



And all I can taste is this moment

And all I can breathe is your life

Cause sooner or later it's over

I just don't want to miss you tonight

Chorus



And I don't want the world to see me

Cause I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

Verse 3



And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming

Or the moment of truth in your lies

When everything seems like the movies

Yeah you bleed just to know your alive



Chorus



And I don't want the world to see me

Cause I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

Chorus



I don't want the world to see me

Cause I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am



I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am

WHERE DID IT ALL GO AWAY....

From the endless talks ,
To the speechless words ,
From the slightest smiles,
To the saddest tears,
I felt each part of you ,
From the darkest parts of my heart,
To the places where you showed me the way to sunshine,
I find broken pieces of my clueless dreams,
Finding their way to the most suitable place,
Engulfed In my Mind,
For Ever and Ever More,
Amen.....

WHY...

Why did I choose something on the web to post something which I want to say.There are so many obvious reasons and so many other one's which does not even matter.
 

The Fact is and will always remain is that everyone has a different sub-conscious .Some people prefer to say things more clearly , some people don't.Some people are perspicacious and for some people life is matter of few hours and few glasses of beer after which they fall to the ground and look out for a shit-hole to release their puke.What I feel is that a blog is a release of the tense turmoils boiling inside your head which you want to show to the world.The virtual being of an earth - worm ( That is us) on the internet has many pros and cons.

I being another earth worm look forward to a release .Not like the usual release but a different kind of satisfaction .As I continue to write I somehow feel relaxed .I dont't know why , I don't have an idea whether this will satisfy me that much in the near future but I live in the ecstasy of the present than the unrealistic and obscure nature of the future

 So here we are again , me and my virtual being starting again with a new journey through my psyche into the places where I will find myself again.